Right now I’m feeling guilty, as I always do, because work called to ask if I could fill in a shift because someone called off. Typically I would but this weekend is different. I haven’t had a weekend, a two-day weekend, since Oct 2016. Like everyone else, I’ve worked my six days straight last week and the week before, so I’m entitled to my own guilty pleasures.
There is a Polish proverb, “Not my circus, not my monkeys.” Few words but a strong message. In the past I would jump at the chance to work for various reasons. One, the overtime pay. Two, a hope that in the eyes of others I’m appreciated. However, from past experiences, as well as current, I know the later is never the case. People always make promises but never keep them.
Honestly, I’m not guilty for saying, “No, I can’t work for you.” I’m guilty because I threw in a lie. I said that I was having dinner with a friend who has Stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. She is a college friend who I haven’t seen since her diagnosis years ago. We’ve tried to make arrangements to see each other but things always come up. This was the truth – I do have a friend with Stage 4 PC and again she cancelled due to her daughter’s recent illness. So here’s my excuse, it’s not a full fledge lie, just a fib or sorts. Does it really matter? I shouldn’t have given details anyway. A firm, “No” would have sufficed.
Selfishness comes to mind, not only for myself but for those that called in and those that are asking me to work. We all have our own selfish reasons. We’re all tired of working extra hours because we know our c0-workers just don’t want to work, as they rarely have a valid reason for not coming to work. Facebook proves it (which amazes me everytime). Don’t call in work, then post on FB, “It’s party time!” Idiots.
Many co-workers have families with young children. I’m sorry but that excuse is getting old too. I understand it feels like children grow up quickly and you want to spend every waking minute in their lives. But you have to work to support your children. You also know damn well that there are times, like now, that you have to work. You are working in the medical field. This is typical anywhere you work. Just accept it.
For once, I’m going to enjoy two days off. Ideally, I didn’t want to think of work at all but I knew that the call was coming. Everyone knew that people were scheduled and wren’t coming in. So why didn’t they fix it then instead of waiting to the last minute. At least have a backup. Oh that’s right, they don’t think OUTSIDE the box, just right past their own nose.
See picture above. I’m done. Back to my guilty pleasures.