For the last few months, as mentioned in a couple of posts, I have not been happy with myself nor where I’m going in life. At times like this, I tend to look towards my own spirituality. Many moons ago, even before sobriety, I found something that I have believed in strongly but has a strong public stigma that rarely do I discuss it with others.
I am not a religious man. Far from it. I tend to not even discuss religious dogma with others because it always turns into an argument, so I just avoid such things “like the plague”. However, I do respect all religions as we can learn something from each and every one of them. My Path, as I simply call it, allows me free will to do things as I wish, however there are benefits and consequences for good or bad choices.
Okay, out with it – it’s called Witchcraft. Yes, I am a Witch, Pagan, Heathen or whatever name you choose to label me because they are all basically the same. Just as with organized religions, we do and practice the same things just by different names and different ways. For now that is all I’ll say on the topic.
However, like a believer of organized religion, when life gets rough, I tend to look towards my spiritual beliefs for answers. Through my own experiences, I know that I have the ability to change things, I just need a little help. However, that help involves dedication and practice. The later, practice, is what is lacking in my life.
Year after year after year, I tell myself I’m going to become more dedicated in my spirituality. I truly believe They intervened to guide me towards sobriety. I strongly believe, on a daily basis (my Higher Powers), They help me with day to day struggles. But many times I don’t feel my bond with Them is as strong as it should be. Thus, I vowed to myself that in 2017, no matter what is going on in my life, I will make the time to dedicate and honor Them. For those not understanding my cryptic writing – there is a strong sense that I need to go back to church on a regular basis!
I’ve always been proud of who I am and my beliefs, thus the secrecy. This even ties in with the principles of AA, the Twelfth Tradition, “Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.” I have always found that interesting.