Time to turn to a new blank page; I woke up alive and sober this morning. My spirits are lifted after my morning prayer, meditation and daily recovery reading postings I do here. Today is my “busy” day running here and there, however I’ve already accomplished a couple of things on my to-do list. Hopefully I can keep the momentum going the rest of the day.
This last weekend was all over the place. I was a swinging pendulum. By the time I came home after a meeting last night, I was completely exhausted. Going to bed early last night accomplished my first goal today – getting enough rest!
As mentioned earlier, I’m continuing to work on my 4th Step – taking a personal inventory. Honestly I haven’t touched it sine Friday/Saturday. I’m not procrastinating. I’m putting little fires out here and there. Something I need to remind myself – I’m not a “fixer”. Self-care came up in the meeting yesterday – a message I needed to here.
After all my morning and early afternoon activities, I’m going to sit myself down and work on my 4th Step a bit more. Technically I have a treatment group this afternoon but I’m not going. Doing this is more important – period. There is a lot of “garbage” I need to get on paper. I’ve been waiting for this moment since the beginning of my sobriety. I need to keep moving forward.
Since the beginning of my sobriety, I haven’t watched a movie I enjoy (i.e. The Sound of Music, Willow, The Neverending Story, Mary Poppins, Cats (on Broadway), Mask (1985) with Cher, The Dark Crystal, etc.) My choices are endless. It just sounds nice to grab perhaps some ice cream from the local Byrne Dairy, or throw some popcorn in the microwave and relax a couple hours before bed tonight.
Don’t know. Just thoughts, not making plans. Whatever happens I’ll be happy with it.
As Phil Keoghan says on the Amazing Race, “The Race starts now . . . ” Off to start my new day. But no rushing to do anything. Things will happen when they are meant to happen!